What are the important moments in the girl/woman’s life? I could draw a list of such events. That is from the time when I was actually old enough to remember and consider things important. Not everyone’s list will be the same, although most of the stuff will remain unchanged. My list looks more less like this:
First boyfriend
First “serious” boyfriend
First real date
Discos and parties
College time and the importance of being “someone”
Becoming and adult (and being treated as one)
Real relationship
Engagement and wedding
First extra-parental home
First child (pregnancy, childbirth, hospital… the lot), second child…
Motherhood
Marriage
Work and holidays
Friendships
Retirement
That’s the basic list of events, which were supposed to be significant for me. Running through my life, I didn’t think about them. One day, well into my 40s, I noticed that whenever I watch TV, there is at least one scene there that brings tears to my eyes. Then I started analysing it. Got to devastating conclusions. I couldn’t remember celebrating or enjoying anything that others did. Not that nothing happened, some of it did, but it was not as I imagined it to be, or how it was supposed to be. I tried to figure where did I go wrong and why all this turned out this way… Thinking about it is one thing, and I am getting some idea what happened, while I am writing this blog. It seems that typing each word, slowly brings more memories to my mind. As I go over the subject on and on, I discover myself more in depth. I thing, this is a beginning of a very interesting journey, not only for you, but for me as well.
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